I feel that God might love me. Though I feel that ultra slow. I have been hurt so much I blamed God. Now I feel I’m hard to love. Maybe it’s that I’m not righteous or I’ve sinned so easily. I just wonder God do you love me? Or do You know me? I haveContinue reading “Sad Poet Saturday: Agape”
Like I said Tuesday, I need therapy about this love. I have never been number one. I have always been an option. I’m the second choice cause I’m funny and “sweet”, but unrefined and plain faced. So I’m not a first thought girl. I have a great personality, but I’m crazy, because I’ve been traumatized.Continue reading “Sad Poet Saturday: Eros”
I had a terrible time with an infection, but I’m back on my weightloss goals. I was pretty infected because everything was making me sick. Treated that and now I’m partially alive again.
My skin has been pretty bad the past few years and nothing has worked. Turns out maybe I have been misdiagnosed so I will be getting that checked out too. I am about to get shot number two on Tuesday! YAY! I see a specialist today about my sleep apnea. I have been having nightmaresContinue reading “Health Update: Skin and Shots”
One of my favorite days, because there is usually a gardening thing to do. My plants died but I have this little seed kit to plant. I have not written at all, because I’ve been doing exercises for Borderline Personality Disorder that have made me very excited to not be in trouble for taking careContinue reading “Happy Earth Day Citizens of the Planet!”
If I start to go all natural raw I’m going to get WAY sick. So I’m just going to avoid preservatives and processed stuff. I love pasta, but I will forego it for my health.
I can’t eat acid anymore, so I’m going to have to eat alkaline vegan. I’m scared, but hopefully I will not get too low of a blood count taking supplements like I’m supposed to take. I have to give up acid producing food. It’s been a nightmare for sleep. My allergy people have told meContinue reading “Alkaline Vegan Diet with Supplements”
I can’t think straight, so I will have to nix recipe day. I was excited, but I can’t figure out how to eat. All the diets are wrong. I don’t know. I’m really sick. I can’t think and I can’t recall things. I need help pretty bad. This Friday I have a pulmonology appointment. HopefullyContinue reading “Nixing Recipe Day”
The love I wish I had and have been hurt by the most. Eros love. Erotic love. Romance.
I have never got down to the source of my issues so I think that therapy will help. I got set up today. Hopefully I will stop trying to solve my own problems. I have been solving my own problems for so long that I haven’t solved them. I have to let go and letContinue reading “Starting Therapy”